Hi pearlinsea22,
Don’t worry you are not rude and I can understand your worry and frustration you are facing presently.
Before I go into your problem perhaps it is good to take a look at the root of your chart so that you could understand yourself better. Please take note that present decade and annual luck is not taken into consideration and this will have some influence to your present character and behavior.
Your Day Master is Wu Yang Earth and is very weak. You fall under the chart profile of “The Pioneer or Indirect Wealth” Individual fall under this profile is apt at management and can also frequently grasp opportunities to reap profits. You are flexible, alert and sociable. In addition you are decisive and generous. Speed is very important to you and you exude the style of an entrepreneur.
Since your Day Master is Weak your favorable element will be Fire and Earth, Metal is neutral to you and Water and Wood will be your unfavorable element.
As your Day Master is Weak it is advisable for you to work in an organization that places importance and value on learning opportunities, self-improvement, continuous training and mentoring. You will enjoy working as part of a team-work or collaborative component to it or which require team-building or building relationships or involve collaborative experiences. You should involve in research or developmental component product.
A working environment with sufficient support staff or resources to support you will make you comfortable to work in. You will not be able to perform well in environments where they have to do everything yourselves or you are the sole member of the department or team. In another word a big organization which can provide good resources support and team work is best for you.
You maybe a life-long learner, possess a great deal of curiosity and interests but suffer almost from being too clever and knowledgeable. You cannot decide where to focus your interest and in some instances you culminate to improve and advance and who strives to be better but seem to lack the opportunities needed.
You have a low sense of self-esteem and always feel inadequate and uncomfortable with yourselves at all time, a worrier. You have a fragile sense of pride and need constant re-assurance because you are often consumed with concern that you may not be accepted by those around you.
You are often surrounded by people who can help you but you are often unaware that such people exist, or have no idea of the kind of help that can be provided by the Noble People around you. Thus you need to open your mouth and tap into the wealth of assistance and guidance that exist around you.
You have problem interacting with any social structure of being in any environment or situation which involves interacting with others. You are just socially dysfunctional individuals.
You lack the ability to empathize with other people and will often manifest as a selfish personality. You go through life without much supporter or people who will get behind your ideas or endeavors. Anything you do also does not catch the fire with the general public. As such you will not be able to pursue a career that is dependant on having fans or supporters such as an artist career or a career as a public official such as a politician.
You lack ambition and dream, you are passive, lacks any substantive or solid interest in life and you are quite a dullard. As a result you are not productive in your jobs and lack a pro-active or initiative-driven temperament. You are not a great creative thinkers or able to come up with innovative solution. Even if you come out with something, the ideas are poor copies or rip-off from somewhere you read. You belong to those persons who sit back and wait to be told what to do.
As your wealth element is strong it will deteriorate your health and there is a tendency that you become easily over-stressed due to excessive work commitments. You should look to avoid being too money-minded or focus too much on your career. In this way you will benefit from less greed and more selectiveness when it comes to opportunities related to work or financial advancement.
You choose to abuse your power and make use of your power or status to wreck havoc or to get even or take revenge. You attain your position or power or leadership through illegitimate or underhand means and you have no credibility and command no respect at all despite of your position.
Conclusion:
In your chart yours Month and Hour Pillar is sitting on a Heaven Void. For the Month Pillar sitting on Heaven void it may result your relationship with your siblings and peers are distant and antagonistic. You are unable to enjoy smooth path in life, resulting in depression and hardship. As for the Hour Pillar sitting on Heaven Void your affinity with children is not close and your children may have difficulty to excel. You are also likely to live in loneliness and receive no kinship support.
There is a blocked Uncivilized Punishment which makes you emotionally unstable or cannot in control of your emotions. As this is also a Flower of Romance clash so it could lead to sexual abuse.
Finally there is a Hai Pig Self Punishment which will make you keep things inside your heart resulting in depression and easily tempting to commit suicide.
Presently you enter into a strong 7 Killings fame decade luck cycle. For female with strong 7 killings Star in a chart is considered unfavorable. In addition to your career related and professional personal interaction problems, you will also find many challenges in the romantic relationship sphere. It could be either as an excess of choices when it comes to suitors or plenty of choices and options when it comes to the opposite sex but with none of it yielding a good quality relationship. This may generally make you easily being misunderstood or suffer from a reputation problem. Furthermore your Day Master is weak and this may result you in being taken advantage or controlled by your spouse or opposite sex.
In term of feng shui you can try to use more red, purple, yellow and brown color. You can wear some crystal bracelet which could help to strengthen your Earth element. In term of career you can go for Fire and Earth element jobs. You can also sleep with your head pointing toward South, Southwest and Northeast direction.
Hope that this could help you understand yourself and your present conditions better.
Bernard