Hi louhan,
In strict traditional bazi practitional context, we do not believe in karmic. (thou I do.)
So I could not answer your question in regards to karma.
You see, the problem here is not only that you have 辰辰自刑 but also the year pillar 壬戌 direct clash with your day pillar.
For 辰辰自刑 to take place, the conditions are 1) HS must have earth 2) HS no earth but meet another(3rd) 辰 in EB.
You have both.
When 辰辰自刑, the laymen term is that earth energy being strengthen. 辰 HHS is 戊(main) 乙(second) 癸(last). When earth energy is strengthen within 辰 the 乙 and 癸 will get hurt. That also explain why 辛丑 LP 丙辛 combine water at your 辰 month EB could not last long because 1) 辰辰自刑 keep activating and weaken 癸 water. 2) Year and month 辰戌 clash. You see money, but it won't hold.
When we talk about your Day and Year pillar clash, you must always find out who won the battle. In this case your Day won.
If you are in good term with your Dad, take good care of him. If aren't talking much, leave it as it is.
So you see, the depression is all within yourself. It is within your control of your own emotions. You chose to react to it.
Asking you to go to the orphanage is trying to activate your 食伤 thus metal element. You must drain your 辰/earth energy to achieve equilibrium. I do not know about cats...LOL forgive me...
Lastly, why volunteer? Changing/rectifying life course is not that easy that most people think. Placing a flying horse at the south sector? So easy? Maybe you would like to read a story. Goggle this: 達摩于梁武帝 - 沒功沒德.
P/S: another few years time you will meet another Dog year. Learn to switch off and turn immune to things happening around you. It is just a life course, accept it.
